The words I can't say

You're so kind yet so cold
You're quite a hard worker
That's the part I like about you
You don't care about what people think
You just live the life you want
please always be yourself
Always be you that I adore
"please look at me!"
"please say something"
"good luck"
"don't you realize?"
"I'm here" "I understand your feeling"
"I like the way you are"
"do you have someone you like?"
"I want to know more about you"
Those words are what's in my mind
My heart also yells those words
Even "I like you" that will never be said to you..
I just can say it in my heart
You always ask me
About anything but not everything
You always need me when you need something
In your eye, I'm just a useful information giver? Right?
I feel like you really trust me
I feel like you really rely on me
Because you always ask to me...
We always talk at messages
Yet.. We rarely talk in real life.
I'm just hoping you would understand
I hope my feeling will reach you
I know you will never know this if I never say this to you.
I just hope I can tell it to you someday..somehow..
But a greet, a smile, a support from you, that's what makes me happy right now
Sore dake...

Pastry Chef

Haaa.. Finally I write again after a very very long time...
And this year I'm entering a college life..
I take hospitality management major.
Why? Because I have a dream of becoming a pastry chef and own a big bakery. I'm very inspired of seeing Japanese can make such a very nice cake.
So.. Instead of just eating and spending money, I should try to learn making cakes and make money right? I can't just sit, eating, and SPENDING MONEY. You know now there's no cake that's sold cheap. The ingredients are pretty expensive and of course the cake looks fabulous and tastes like heaven  right..
I know.. I've had some practical in pastry, and I'm still not satisfied. Several times I felt like I've messed it up. But I think I need to learn more and be serious. Because I've  determined to be a pastry chef so I should work very hard.
And..not only because I see Japanese can make cakes in a such creative way, it's also because I love Japan, my beloved dream.. I've always wanted to study there.. And look up for some ikemen lol.
I see it's very hard to be a pastry chef. But I'm going to work hard to be a pastry chef.
I want to take OJT in one of the most top hotel, but I also want to try in one of Japanese patisserie. I think I can learn a lot there *only if I had a cance*
Well, wish me luck on stepping my path..